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Music = life

Posted by Joy On 10:14 PM 0 comments

In my music collection there's a song for almost every mood, every situation, almost anything you can think of.. Be it good or bad...from the most sad or depressing to the most happiest songs (most of them rock or metal)..it's all there and that is the reason why I love music so much..

Music's always been there..in my happy times and in my bad times...
Music feeds my soul..

From the heaviness of Slayer to the sometimes chaotic and sometimes soothing Opeth..
From the awesomeness of Iron Maiden to Mr Alexi Laiho..Children of Bodom..
From the female fronted Arch Enemy to the anger and sadness in Three Days Grace..I love it all

Well, let's admit it..Life's tough sometimes..more so for some of us because of our thinking that goes for a hell ride sometimes..it actually is difficult to describe life without music..atleast mine..

Enough for now..See ya

Sad Depressing Metal songs..These songs can make you sad, angry, tearful and can also sooth you, uplift you.. So I am back with another list..another depressing list..This time, again, its about metal. I present to you some of the most depressing metal songs (in my opinion, ofcourse). This is the second depressing metal song list I am making.. The first one is here..Sad Depressing metal songs part 1

So here we go..hope you like it..

Red Water (Christmas Mourning) - Type O Negative
"Wake up, it's christmas mourn 
Those loved have long since gone 
The stocking are hung but who cares 
Preserved for those no longer there 
Six feet beneath me sleep 
Black lights hang from the tree 
Accents of dead holly 
Whoa mistletoe 
(it's growing cold) 
I'm seeing ghost 
(I'm drinking old) 
Red water 
Red water 
Red water chase them away "

Christmas is around the corner. Try playing this on christmas eh..This is my favorite song on the list..Everything from the beginning of the song.. to the little girl crying in the middle..to the end is absolutely beautiful and a must in my list..Ah those vocals by their frontman Peter Steele (R.I.P) fit perfectly in this song and makes it a wonderful depressing song.

Darkness Within - Machine Head 
"Here in the darkness that I lay
Depression heavy in its weigh
And how my body aches to leave
To sing its final eulogy
My sons I love you evermore
And though the road beckons once more
I see the damage that I've done
In search for redemption
But I am just a broken man
Whose souls cries out to understand
How the madness shatters me
Upon the stage on bended knee
I scream out loud at skies above
That answer mute bereft in love
I struggle not to fall from grace
Or sing the hymns of my disgrace

We Build Cathredrals to our pain
Establish monuments to attain
Freedom from all of the scars and the sins
Lest we drown in the darkness within"

A great song by Machine head from their album 'Unto the Locust'..MUSIC MY SAVIOR SAVE ME..Absolutely agree with these lines..Awesome band..Awesome song.

Snuff - Slipknot

"Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again
So if you love me let me go
And run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I can't destroy what isn't there"

"I only wish you weren't my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
I never claimed to be a saint
Ooh, my own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go
So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away, you're all the same
Angels lie to keep control
Ooh, my love was punished long ago
If you still care don't ever let me know
If you still care don't ever let me know"

Slipknot isn't known for these kind of songs..sounds more like Stone Sour but I'm glad they decided to go through with this as its a beautiful song..The vocals by Corey Taylor are simply amazing.

Voice of the soul - Death

An instrumental on this list..well, yes this is a MUST in this list as it is a really awesome and sorrowful tune..Give it a listen..you won't be disappointed.

Sleepless swans - Swallow the sun

"Too late to leave, blinded by the last night
Too far, too late, too deep
To escape from the hands of this night
Winter has our hearts, it finally tore us apart

The cries of loss, ripping wings
We are frozen on the lake
So close to watch her die
But too far to leave together
This tomb of ice finally ripped us apart
We are sleepless swans, frozen on the lake

Lay down your eyes, blinded by the last night
The sun won't light them any longer
The deeper the dark, the clearer we see
Escaping death only made it stronger"

Swallow the Sun  is a Finnish death/doom metal band. Not very well known. I already have too many famous bands on this list so this is a refreshing change..This song is amazing.

Eternal Tears of Sorrow - The River Flows Frozen

"Like frozen leaves
We are falling
On to the soil so barren and cold
The rays of sun
No more warming
Our hearts now so cold
Through this field
Of the withered flowers
We go still one more time
The hidden beauty
Forever gone
The river's frozen once again

So came this time
When moonlight blackened my heart:
I can't stand this pain
The chain is broken
It's tearing open my scars:
I want to feel the flame...again"

Crown of Sympathy - My Dying Bride

"See the light and feel my warm desire, run through my veins like the evening sun.
It will live but no eyes will see it.
I'll bless your name before I die.
No person in everything can shine, yet shine you did, for the world to see.

All a man hath will he give for life?
For life that's lost bleeds all over me.
I'd fallen before but it never hurt like this.
Don't leave me here to crawl through the mire."


A depressing metal song list can't be complete without a song by My Dying Bride.

Well That is it for now.. I have many more depressing metal songs with me..Maybe I'll make another list sometime soon..Here is part 1 Sad Depressing metal songs part 1

Stuff in my room

Posted by Joy On 1:59 AM 0 comments

Nothing better to do..I thought I'd post something :)..Well I'm a computer buff so I'll just post my pc specs and some of the stuff I have in my room (see, I said I have nothing better to do)..

My computer specs

Processor       - Intel i5 3570k (no overclocking...as yet)
Motherboard - MSI Z77A-G41 (Not great I know, but was getting it cheap bundled with the processor)
RAM              - 8 gb Corsair ddr3
Graphics       - AMD 6850 ddr5 1gb
HDD              - Samsung 840 128gb ssd (using an old 250gb alongwith it because both my other hard                                                                                   drives crashed..poor me)
PSU               - Corsair VX550
Cabinet         -  Using an old Cooler Master Elite 330..Want to buy a new one..have my eyes on the  
                        NZXT Guardian 921RB.
Monitor        -  Dell 2030 20 inch plus Samsung c530 32 inch tv hooked to my pc

My Music stuff  

DAC              - Nuforce udac
Amp              - NAD c 326bee
Speakers       - PSB alpha B1
Headphones - Audio Technica Ath m50
Mp3 player  - Cowon iAudio 9 and sansa clipzip

Ya i have some more stuff as well like books which are very hard to find..lol

Random poem

Posted by Joy On 1:06 AM 0 comments

As I sit here writing in the dark...I wonder about the people who left their mark..on me as well as my thoughts...their presence made life beautiful and sometimes brought distraught.........

People have been nice..some haven't been right...but lucky I am to have found such buddies...who have made me a hell lot steady.

So I thank all from the bottom of my heart...a hug from me as a reward ...for you all have been stars...that have shone in my life much brighter than venus and mars 

A short poem I wrote off the top of my head on facebook a while back..for my friends..

What Makes Me Happy

Posted by Joy On 2:15 AM 0 comments

Well all I've been writing down has been your usual depressing stuff eh..nor that it matters really does it?..Maybe someday it will..Till then I'll keep writing shit down..why? don't know why..anyways I was talking about the depressing stuff. For a change I thought I might write something about being happy and stuff like that..They say change is a must..So let's try.

So let me write down the things that make me happy..Well sometimes lots of things and sometimes nothing at all..Happens to all of us doesn't it..Enough! Let's start..
    PEOPLE AROUND ME - I have such wonderful people around me be it my parents, family  members,      friends, online friends.. I mean its quite amazing the support you get from them or guess I'm one of the lucky  ones..talking, chatting to them and just that you know that they're there for you makes me happy..
    MUSIC - Just knowing that I have something to fall back upon when things don't go my way or when I'm down in the dumps..Music's always been there..Doesn't matter what the situation is..what the circumstances are..just blast those speakers or headphones with your favorite music and its all gonna be okay :)

    BEING NICE - Being nice and helping others just makes me feel good..

    THE TIME FACTOR - I know I have lots of free time. Well it can work out either ways as in it can be a bad thing but  I do have all the time in the world to do stuff I like..

    DOING THE STUFF I LIKE - Watching movies, playing games, buying new stuff(computer or music related stuff), roaming around with friends or family and just being around people I like makes me happy..

    THE LUCK FACTOR - Well I've been really lucky in life to have really almost everything I need..

    If I write more it'll become more of an essay so I'll leave it at that for now..If you do manage to read the post kindly comment the things that make you happy..thanks!

    Second poem

    Posted by Joy On 11:59 PM 0 comments

                      A fire burns deep inside your heart
                      The smoke from the ashes rises far
                      You are made to live in this fake reality
                      When everybody else rejoices, you were meant to fall

                      This emptiness, this hatred inside you
                      Brings out the devil inside
                      Do you really wanna be someone else
                      Or are you content with being the failure again

                     Life goes on, you move ahead
                     You see light shining in your head
                     Is this gonna last forever
                     Or will 'You' again mess up your future

                     Time and time again, you tell yourself
                     That its all in your head
                     What if its not, huh?
                     What if, inside, you're the one whose dead..   

    First Poem

    Posted by Joy On 11:53 PM 0 comments

    I thought I'll do something worthwhile and post something new. Its been a long time..I'll start by writing down   a poem  I wrote in college once..Nothing special just a simple poem i thought I'd share..Just writing it down here so that at least I remember that it was written by me and so that there is something to post..

    Here it goes..
                        There is a ray of light
                         A glimpse of hope
                         Will you be able to pounce on it
                         Or will hatred again fill your soul

                         You try to gather strength
                         A brief moment of revenge
                         Against an evil spirit
                         That resides within yourself

                         A mountain begins to rise
                         But its all in your mind
                         Then you start to think
                         That you make your own life

                         A new day begins
                         Happiness still eludes you
                         You decide this is it
                         You'll start afresh and new

                        Suddenly the world is so beautiful
                        Years have passed, you've finally found a place
                        A place where everyone's happy
                        A place where you feel safe

                       You're roaming around happily
                       Gratified to the core
                       You decide to find the reason
                       Why finally, is there hope?

                      You can't find a reason
                      Anger makes you red
                      You decide to give up when
                      Suddenly you realize that now infact you're dead

    Well this poem does mean something..I'll leave the explanation for some other time..Catch ya later.

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