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It depends - A Food for Thought

Posted by Joy On 2:26 AM 0 comments

Which is my favorite song?

Well, it depends...on my mood.

Do I consider myself to be a good person?

Well, it depends on what you or for that matter what I consider to be good.

What goes around..comes around? Do I believe in this?

Well, again, it depends...

I can lay down hundreds of questions to which my answer would be the same.

So the point of this article is? Lets figure this out.

In my opinion or the way I see it, a lot of things depend on something or the other. Answers to questions, stuff you do, stuff you don't do. I am not a really good conversationalist so when ever someone asks me such a question, usually, my answer is the same.

Now, you may ask why? Why can't I give a straight yes or a no answer..I say why should I if I don't believe in it.

Some questions do have definite answers. You might ask..Is the Earth round? I'll say yes. Why? Because it is. It's a universal fact and I believe in it.

Back to our topic..Lets take a few examples..

Is money everything? My answer..

It depends..on what? It depends on how much money you have, your lifestyle, your thinking. You realize it till you don't have it..

Again, back to the topic in hand..Another example

If someone asks me.."Is this particular laptop right for me?" I'll say it depends..on what you are going to use the laptop for..if its for gaming the recommendation would be different and if it's just for internet surfing the recommendation would change to something cheaper.

So the point is whether the question is a simple one such as a gadget buying query or a philosophical one such as the existence of God, my answer remains the same.

Let's go into something very deep. Should a person believe in God? You know what I'll say? I'm sure you do. Yes, it depends..The explanation? If a person is God-fearing and the thought of afterlife and/or God Himself prevents him from doing something bad I'll say sure why not. Yes, believe in God. If it makes you happy, yes you should definitely believe in God. On the other hand, if it doesn't make you happy and if you're just following blindly without any thought and you would rather put your time in doing something constructive I'd say forget about it!

I'm not saying that you shouldn't believe in God. In fact do what your heart says. If you want to do something, do it before it's too late. Stop looking for answers when you have the best answer of them all, it depends.

What Makes Me Happy

Posted by Joy On 2:15 AM 0 comments

Well all I've been writing down has been your usual depressing stuff eh..nor that it matters really does it?..Maybe someday it will..Till then I'll keep writing shit down..why? don't know why..anyways I was talking about the depressing stuff. For a change I thought I might write something about being happy and stuff like that..They say change is a must..So let's try.

So let me write down the things that make me happy..Well sometimes lots of things and sometimes nothing at all..Happens to all of us doesn't it..Enough! Let's start..

PEOPLE AROUND ME - I have such wonderful people around me be it my parents, family members, friends, online friends.. I mean its quite amazing the support you get from them or guess I'm one of the lucky ones..talking, chatting to them and just that you know that they're there for you makes me happy..

MUSIC - Just knowing that I have something to fall back upon when things don't go my way or when I'm down in the dumps..Music's always been there..Doesn't matter what the situation is..what the circumstances are..just blast those speakers or headphones with your favorite music and its all gonna be okay :)

BEING NICE - Being nice and helping others just makes me feel good..

THE TIME FACTOR - I know I have lots of free time. Well it can work out either ways as in it can be a bad thing but I do have all the time in the world to do stuff I like..

DOING THE STUFF I LIKE - Watching movies, playing games, buying new stuff(computer or music related stuff), roaming around with friends or family and just being around people I like makes me happy..

THE LUCK FACTOR - Well I've been really lucky in life to have really almost everything I need..

If I write more it'll become more of an essay so I'll leave it at that for now..If you do manage to read the post kindly comment the things that make you happy..thanks!

Second poem

Posted by Joy On 11:59 PM 0 comments

A fire burns deep inside your heart

The smoke from the ashes rises far

You are made to live in this fake reality

When everybody else rejoices, you were meant to fall

This emptiness, this hatred inside you

Brings out the devil inside

Do you really wanna be someone else

Or are you content with being the failure again

Life goes on, you move ahead

You see light shining in your head

Is this gonna last forever

Or will 'You' again mess up your future

Time and time again, you tell yourself

That its all in your head

What if its not, huh?

What if, inside, you're the one whose dead..

First Poem

Posted by Joy On 11:53 PM 0 comments

Howdy!
I thought I'll do something worthwhile and post something new. Its been a long time..I'll start by writing down a poem I wrote in college once..Nothing special just a simple poem i thought I'd share..Just writing it down here so that at least I remember that it was written by me and so that there is something to post..

Here it goes..
There is a ray of light
A glimpse of hope
Will you be able to pounce on it
Or will hatred again fill your soul

You try to gather strength
A brief moment of revenge
Against an evil spirit
That resides within yourself

A mountain begins to rise
But its all in your mind
Then you start to think
That you make your own life

A new day begins
Happiness still eludes you
You decide this is it
You'll start afresh and new

Suddenly the world is so beautiful
Years have passed, you've finally found a place
A place where everyone's happy
A place where you feel safe

You're roaming around happily
Gratified to the core
You decide to find the reason
Why finally, is there hope?

You can't find a reason
Anger makes you red
You decide to give up when
Suddenly you realize that now infact you're dead

Well this poem does mean something..I'll leave the explanation for some other time..Catch ya later.

Random post

Posted by Joy On 4:41 AM 0 comments

So I've not been blogging much. Nothing to blog about really. Just wanted to start..again..
These days I'm on the lookout for a new amp and a pair of speakers..Old Sony ones broke down and all I have now is my Audio Technica ATH-M50 headphones.. Brilliant pair of headphones I must say. They've been great so far but now I need some new speakers.. Don't have a big budget so been looking at a cheap Topping Tripath amp and matching speakers. Let's see when I'll finally get them..

So lets start with a new topic (Hallowed be thy name playing right now on my headphones)
Oh that reminds me.. A few days back I heard a cover of that Iron Maiden masterpiece by a Band from Nepal - Antim Grahan - a black metal band and I loved it. Cradle of filth's cover is quite famous and is pretty good. Iced Earth did a cover as well and..well I didn't like it..I guess Machinehead also did a cover.

Radiohead - Creep.. Brilliant song eh?.. Shifting to rock for a while. Listened to it after such a long time. Had almost forgotten about this song. Well, here it goes again.. But I'm a creep.. I'm a weirdo.. What the hell am I doing here.. I don't belong here......ah weren't the 90s great.

Now, from a sad song to something hopeful eh?..Just wanted to say that if you've not seen the movie - The Shawshank Redemption you're missing out on something very special.. It's about hope and why it should never die. Atleast for me. Interpret it in any way but it really is a must watch.

Oh I was to start a new topic..Well lets leave that for some other time..See ya later.

Most depressing movies that can make you cry

Posted by Joy On 4:06 AM 0 comments

Well, i'm back. Nor that it matters anyways huh?
No comments or anything. Well doesn't matter..I'll keep this shit going :).

Today I'll be posting another depressing list.(Get the tissues out).
I love to see all kinds of movies depending on my mood and what better to post than a list of the most depressing movies. Some I've seen and some I've not. But I've read enough about the movies that I've not seen to be posting here..I'll try to post the movies that are depressing throughout rather than just a sad ending..Oh another thing..Most of the movies would be recent ones because I don't really like "really" old movies..Plus there won't be any spoilers.So here you go..My list of the most depressing movies..again in no particular order..

Requiem for a dream (2000)
How can a depressing movie list be complete without including this movie..If you're on drugs or something then please don't watch this movie. This movie will make you sick.
This movie is about the effect of drugs on four different people and how it ruins their lives..If you don't like depressing movies move on..This one is not for you..

Dancer in the dark (2000)

The movie plot says that an east European girl goes to America with her young son, expecting it to be like a Hollywood film. Well it certainly isn't and i'm sure you'll agree after you watch this movie. A brilliant performance by the lead actress 'Björk'. According to wikipedia It was reported that the shoot was so physically and emotionally tiring that she swore off acting ever again.

Grave of the fireflies(1988)

So you though animation movies were for kids eh? Try watching this one. Grave of the fireflies is a japanese movie about a young boy and his little sister's struggle to survive in Japan during World War II and what a struggle it is. Watch it to believe it.

The Mist(2007)

Many horror movies are kind of depressing (they certainly are if you ask me) but this one's a bit special. This movie is scary and creepy. Its about fighting for your survival. Imagine this..Blood thirsty creatures unleashed on you and you fighting for your life. Interesting eh?. Oh and the ending is dark and sad which is always good isn't it? Don't miss this one..

Lilja 4-ever(2002)

You get a chance to start a new life and you think it'll all be better and okay but does it always go this way? Not in this movie. Its about a young girl fantasizing about a better life. She thinks she finally gets gets a chance for a better life but does she? Watch it to find out..

Leaving Las Vegas(1995)

Drinking, prostitute, death..It might remind you of some cheesy flick but this movie's not. Nicholas Cage is an alcoholic who has lost everything due to his drinking and he comes to Vegas to drink himself to death. Here he meets and forms a friendship with a prostitute.

Angela's Ashes(1999)

Another movie about poverty and a family trying to make ends meet. The movie is based on an autobiography and is depressing to say the least.

21 grams(2003)

21 grams is a drama film of how an accident brings together three different people and how much it affects their lives. Sean Penn and Naomi Watts both give great performances in this must watch tragic movie.

Million Dollar Baby(2004)

Everyone's heard of this movie which won four Oscars. Nothing more to say. Its about a woman trying to establish herself as a boxer. And does she succeed? Errrr watch it!

The Road(2009)

Another survival tale. This time its about a man and his son trying to survive by all means possible..

The descent(2005)

Another horror movie in the list. This movie is about a cave expedition gone wrong. What happens inside the cave..well I know it.its for you to find out!

Thanks for reading. I had fun writing. Hope you had fun reading. Try commenting for a change ;)

Darkness

Posted by Joy On 3:17 AM 0 comments

I started this blog just to express my love for music and others things that I love doing. I haven't been blogging much. Just 5 posts so far. I almost forgot about about the blog but now I've decided to show more interest in it and will try to update it more often. Not that anyone would care and maybe I'm only talking to myself here. But well, lets see where this takes me.

This post is just a rant more than anything else. I said it before that I might try to express my views in the blog. So, here i present to you nothing else now but my views.

Before I start I just want to say that anything and everything I write in this blog is just my personal opinion. Ofcourse it is...

So what does my blog title mean? Melancholy Darkness?? What kind of a stupid name is that. Does it make any sense? To me it does. I can't explain it but well lets move on..

Let me tell you a story or if I may I will ask you to stretch your imagination for a little while..
Imagine you're suddenly in a dark world with nobody there except you. Darkness is all around you. You try to find a way out but you can't. You're not able to. Your spirit is down and so are you. You shout out loud crying for help. Suddenly, you see a small light somewhere in the darkness. You run towards it but it keeps getting away. You're running and just when it seems that you will get there, just when you reach out for it, it vanishes..You're back to square one.You decide to give up once and for all and just sit there...maybe for ever.

After some time the crying stops and you just lie there. Time passes. You start thinking about the darkness. You start to enjoy the darkness. Darkness becomes your friend. You're free as a bird. Theres no obstacles. You can do anything you like with the darkness ofcourse..After some time you start feeling lonely and wish that somebody was there with you.Time passes.. While roaming in the darkness you find a door. You open it and see that your old world is in front of you. You're very happy but before stepping into "this" world you think twice if you wanna leave the darkness..

You decide you want to and you step into the old world again..Once you're back into this world you find chaos all around, so many people to face and to compete with, so much of pressure, so much of noise. You're head is spinning. You're out of control. It seems like people are screaming in your ears. You try to regain control. Once you're back to your senses you suddenly realize that "this" world is DARKER that the "dark" world..........